Time away from baby -- cue the guilt!
As I type this I’m sitting in my mother-in-law’s kitchen drinking coffee and watching the news, checking my social networking sites and contemplating what my day will consist of.
I’m a mother. Shouldn’t I be tending to baby?
Among the perks of visiting family is moms get a break. And I’ve been getting plenty. So why do I feel so darn guilty?
Part of it comes from having a baby at 30. It’s not like I’m a really young mom who depends on family to help her rear her child. I’m perhaps the best suited for this motherhood thing. Married, gainfully employed, no criminal record and lots of time to share with my little one. Sometimes I feel like I should be so engulfed in motherhood that I shouldn’t get a break.
Crazy you say? Indeed.
I’m planning to go out with a friend tonight and probably have a really good time. I’ll probably even get a little tipsy (pray tell!) But I have a feeling I will be out on my third margarita when I get this wash of guilt that sends me straight home. My mother in law has assured me that I should not feel guilty. That it’s perfectly fine to take a break … even a long break … even maybe rent a hotel room and just pamper myself while she watches the baby.
I’m not sure I’ll be able to stay away for a whole night. I feel like I’m taking my first breath in the morning when I see my little guy. How ever will I survive?
The truth is I need the space. I need the time. I need the sleep! And I’m going to take it. Because at the end of the day there aren’t many people that I would trust my child with more than my mother in law. He will be well fed, clean and safe. And what’s more he’ll learn his grandmother’s face, her smell and her touch. He’ll get a chance to spend time with someone other than his mommy and in the end I think that’s what’s best for baby and me.
-- Nicole Hutcheson, new Times Mom