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Not addressing fears leads to tangled mess in relationship

Not addressing fears leads to tangled mess in relationship

Q: I'm an idiot. I cheated on my girlfriend of five years. When she found out, I went through hell trying to regain her trust, and I ended up proposing to her before I really felt ready. We are getting married this summer, but I still have thoughts about the other woman (a co-worker). I feel like I am walking on eggshells with my girlfriend and that one more wrong move will end our relationship, which cannot happen. Tell me I'm an idiot, then please tell me what to do.

Spinning My Wheels

A: You're an idiot. I don't get to do that often.

But while knowing, admitting and begging others to underscore that you're an idiot is a good start, it's not enough to fix this. For that you need to address the mistakes that earned you this distinction.

It wasn't just the cheating, or the proposing under pressure, and it isn't just that you're still thinking about the other woman.

The biggest idiot move, I think, was jumping from the cheating stage to the winning-your-girlfriend-back stage — bypassing entirely (as far as I can tell) the introspection stage, where one figures out why one cheated in the first place.

Three general conditions lead to cheating: 1) committing to the wrong person; 2) having no business committing to anyone; 3) both.

Unless your getting busted for cheating led to a life-altering epiphany about her/yourself/both, then you're either still with the wrong woman or still not ready to commit. Or both.

I'm guessing there was no life-altering epiphany here.

Instead, you come across as having a classic case of the yips. You're afraid to be honest, afraid to screw up, afraid to get married, afraid to call it off, afraid to upset your girlfriend, afraid to be alone.

All of them are common, to varying degrees. But the scariest thing of all has to be the fallout from letting your fears rampage unchallenged. You're not choosing marriage so much as fleeing the alternatives. How's that for a 50th anniversary toast?

Fear is a disastrous excuse to get married — something you already know, but are afraid to face.

So wrest the controls away from your fears by: 1) admitting to yourself everything that scares you; 2) admitting that building on a mistake is always worse than the mistake itself; 3) admitting to your fiancee you're not ready.

Keep in mind, too, that any relationship that's meant to survive will survive your telling the truth.

Ex-boyfriend gets a new girlfriend, contacts old flame

Q: My ex-boyfriend has a girlfriend, and has been e-mailing and texting me for five months, telling me I am the love of his life. We live on different coasts. If I were in her place I'd be heartbroken. Yet, I want to see if I could be with him. This stinks, mostly for her, but for all of us.

Santa Monica

A: Sure, but you're making it sound more complicated than it is. Regardless of whether you and he have a future, he and his girlfriend don't. He's mistreating her, and you're abetting that, and until that's remedied somehow, neither of you can offer integrity, which is the only future you want.

Not addressing fears leads to tangled mess in relationship 06/11/09 [Last modified: Thursday, June 11, 2009 7:39am]
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