Wife needs a way to forgive gigantic betrayal of trust

Wife needs a way to forgive gigantic betrayal of trust

Q: Last month, I found out that my husband of four decades had an "emotional affair" for the past year. He is 60, and she is a 32-year-old at his workplace. After I questioned her frequent calls, he would always blow me off with one excuse or another. When our (grown) daughter questioned the appropriateness, he started deleting calls and text messages. I checked our bill and was shocked to discover hundreds of calls and text messages between them.

I printed out several bills and confronted him. He gave that we're-just-friends excuse that cheating husbands often use.

He has apologized many times, swears there was never anything "physical," and says he was stupid for being flattered that a 32-year-old would talk to him. He called the week I found out "the worst week of my life" — and I have to say, "Good!" Perhaps he was only upset he had been caught?

Since then he has called me a lot more, been more attentive, but I still do not trust him while he's at work with her. He's been true to his word that there were no more calls/texts after I found out. He keeps saying he wants to stay married and she is nothing more than a friend, but I am still full of anger that he would allow this intrusion into our marriage. I think she is a predator.

I have seen a therapist to figure out how to deal with this. Do you think I will ever be able to trust him again? How do I get over my anger? This is always on my mind, and I often have trouble sleeping. In a weird irony, he will soon no longer be working there, for unrelated reasons.

Anonymous

A: That's not irony, that's a gift.

And I realize what I'm about to suggest is counter to everything your feelings are telling you right now, and is likely to offend your sense of justice.

However, here it is anyway: Please consider regarding your husband with sympathy.

I'm not minimizing his betrayal. He made a huge mistake that caused huge damage to a huge element of his life — you. It's in this very hugeness that the potential for sympathy lies. Why does someone starting his seventh decade of life and fifth decade of marriage, who is well-established in a highly respected profession (edited from the letter to preserve your privacy), who has raised children and apparently hasn't strayed before, abuse his cell phone like a teenager with a woman half his age?

Because he's a person and people are fools, that's why. Not everyone cannonballs into stupid the way your husband did, like an 8-year-old at a pool, and so your anger is justified.

Still, your anger punishes you more than it does him, and that's why it's so important for you to find a way to face it and purge it from your home. Good counseling will help, I think, since you can unload there and bring a more reasoned self to bear on your marriage. But his response — specifically, your reaction to it — defines this process. Do you believe him? That he felt flattered then, feels stupid now, wants to stay married, sees the extra attention toward you as show-his-love vs. save-his-butt?

If no, you go. If yes, though, then that's the root for trust: He's not evil, he's weak. Believing him means he's facing the truth of his actions and choosing the decency path. It's unfortunate that leaving the path is sometimes what it takes for people to appreciate its comforts. But if your husband's back on it, then the question you need to answer is, what do you need — from him, from yourself — to forgive the weakness in him? I wonder if his admitting that "just friends" is a howler will do.

Wife needs a way to forgive gigantic betrayal of trust 06/04/11 [Last modified: Saturday, June 4, 2011 5:31am]

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