Her son's killer stood on a chair on the gallows, his hands shackled, the noose around his neck. Hundreds crowded outside the jailhouse in a northern Iranian town to see if the mother, Samereh Alinejad, would exercise her right to kick the chair out from under him to let him hang.
But after seven years of dreaming of revenge — up to the last moment she held the killer's life in her hands — Alinejad pardoned Bilal Gheisari. That act has made her a hero in her hometown, Royan, on the shores of the Caspian Sea, where banners in the streets commend her family's mercy. Two weeks after the dramatic scene at the gallows, well-wishers still pass by her home to praise her and her husband
Alinejad told an Associated Press reporter during a visit to her home that retribution had been her only thought ever since her 17-year-old son Abdollah was killed seven years ago in a street brawl when Gheisari's knife sliced through his neck. "My world collapsed the day I heard about my son's death," she said. "If I pardoned Bilal and saved him from death, how would I be able to live anymore?"
The thought of Gheisari's family's happiness at his eventually walking out of jail a free man ate her up inside. "I told my husband if he were spared death, I would die," she said.
Families of murder victims in Iran and some other Muslim countries are often faced with the final word choice over whether convicted killers live or die. The Islamic law concept of "qisas" — an "an eye for an eye" provision — gives them the chance to oversee the killer's execution.
They also have the option to have mercy — often in return for blood money payments of $35,000 or more. Forgoing qisas is seen as an act of charity and a chance to atone for one's sins. In standard murder cases in Iran, it is a choice left up to victim's family, not the government.
Alinejad's pardon was not the first time a family decided to forgo retribution at the last minute. But a series of photos by an Iranian photographer for the ISNA news agency at the gallows in the nearby town of Nour on April 15 offered a dramatic window into what would have been Gheisari's last moments.
Abdolghani Hosseinzadeh, the murdered teen's father, was something of a local celebrity as a well-known former soccer player who now coaches children in the game. Both his son and his son's killer, who was a couple of years older, trained at the Derakhshan Soccer School where he teaches.
Leading up to the day of execution, neighbors, activists and even a popular TV program had appealed to the couple to spare Gheisari. Kamyar Salari, the manager of a local non-profit that provides support to prisoners, said he told the couple, "You have a right to retribution. However, when time passes, usually the level of anger drops."
"I asked them to give forgiveness some thought," he said. "He is young and ... he just made a mistake."
None of the appeals seemed to work.
Further deepening the family's sense of loss, their other son, Amir, had died years earlier in an accident when he was riding his bicycle and was hit by a motorcycle — and Gheisari was one of two boys on the motorcycle.
On April 15, Alinejad walked slowly toward the gallows, with Gheisari's family among the crowd of onlookers. A blindfolded Gheisari, weeping, begged her one last time. "Forgive me, Aunt Maryam," he pleaded, addressing Alinejad by the nickname she is widely known by in the community. "Show your mercy."
Alinejad moved in close, face to face, with Gheisari. "Did you have mercy on us? Did you show mercy to my son?" she demanded. "You have taken happiness away from us. Why should I have mercy toward you?"
Alinejad stared angrily him. Then she slapped him across the face. She and her husband slipped the noose off his neck, and with that move, Gheisari's death sentence had been commuted.
Some in the crowd applauded. Others stood silently shocked.
Alinejad's decision was widely publicized in Iran, suggesting that Iranian authorities hope to encourage more victims' families to consider choosing mercy over retribution. In a report on the Iranian judiciary's website, state prosecutor Gholam Hossein Mohseni Ejehi described accepting blood money for a stay of execution as a humane practice. He said it spared the lives of 358 convicts in the last Iranian calendar year, which ended in March.
Iran has come under sharp criticism by international rights groups for its high rate of executions. Amnesty International says 369 people were publicly put to death in the Islamic Republic last year. The majority of executions are for drug smuggling.
Gheisari's sentence was changed to 12 years in prison, half of which he has served already.
Alinejad and her husband, who have a young daughter, have refused to accept blood money that benefactors had collected on Gheisari's behalf, proposing it go instead to charity and improving local soccer schools.
Alinejad said she feels relief.
"This slap made me feel as if all the blood that had accumulated in my heart over the years suddenly burst and poured out. I became peaceful," Alinejad said. "I do not think about revenge anymore."